Welcome To Magic City

i kinda feel like no one wants me here :( i understand. and it's ok that you feel that way.i don't even wanna be me right now.I've already been beaten by this years events,my parents,sorry i let y'all down.IDK whats been with me.

     I'm in BIG trouble already.with school,friends,and some of my friends dying :O as if things weren't BAD enough.i did something in school thats "BAD!!" but yea,it's sooooo "BAD!!" that now i have to be escorted by security everywhere i go.haha(: i've been sent to the principal over 10 times this week.

i've been thinking alot and i've come to this result...I DON'T WANNA GROW-UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! D: cuz then i gotta move-out,retire,get old and then DIE :O i don't wanna die.i just feel like i'll never have enough time for anything.i miss having it easy,fun,and chill.now i have to get old and die. :( noooo!!!

         I've noticed everything is falling apart.my family,friends,school,and everything.I keep having Nightmares.i cried myself to sleep last night.i had a dream my mom died,then my dad and everyone i know died and then i was the only one left and i had to die alone,and no one came to my funeral!! i have no clue whats wrong with me.i wish i had no drama right now of all times,it had to be now didn't it? grrrr. and for the hopefully final add.

    I Wish i didn't have to add to this list:

    R.I.P. Tio Elias

    R.I.P. Grandpa Manuel

    R.I.P. Grandpa Filiberto

    R.I.P. Sammy  (passed away on my b-day.july 23rd)

    R.I.P. Temo... (passed away a few days ago.)